Patrick[; +♥

● Sunday, July 11

HELLO WORLDS.
wassup! lol.
today, went to SDC to book my brother's next driving lesson.
the lesson before his driving test!
ZOMG. i'm more excited than him!
the thought of him driving totally makes me jump!
cause i've seen him drive before.
i guarantee that his face is like, perplexed, stressed out.
or just one word to describe -FUNNY.
lol. i'm excited!

CHINESE BLUES~
anw, i've got something on my mind.
its about my chinese.
i know i'm mad saying all these crap.
i used to be good in chiense.
now it just seems alien to me.
i mean i have no problem conversing, reading.
but my command is still not good enough.
LOL. i cant write the standard i used to.
and my paper 2 marks really suck.
idk. seems like i'm subconciously letting go of my chinese.
ever since i got B3 for EOY last yr. LOL.
LOL. last week, during my nephew's full month celebration.
my aunt was conversing with my other newphew, p4.
she found out he's learning basic chinese.
and my newphew cant converse properly in chinese.
and she was like fuming.
she was like saying we are chinese, blah.
all the stuff.
i wasnt actually listening.
i was watching television as usual.
then i heard my aunt tell my newphew '' must be like your aunt k! she takes HMT ''
waa, when i heard that i immediately felt guilty.
i'm not even good in chinese anymore.
i know i did get the highest for HMT during sec2.
but my standard dropped a lot.
people should stop assuming i'm good in chinese.
it just builds up to my stress.
i used to think its ok if i'm average in english.
afterall my chinese still can get A1.
but now i'm like average in chinese and dangling in english.
i feel like i'm nowhere.
LOL. this sucks i swear.
i AM worried for my chinese.
not like what my teacher says '' some ppl dont look like the're worried''
LOL. i know i dont put in as much effort for my chinese anymore.
idk. people are catching up with me and i have already lagged behind.
plus, my brother keeps telling me that chinese is useless.
he keeps saying after poly, JC, no more chinese alr what.
plus, people rarely converse in chinese anymore.
LOL. i do agree, but i'm not worried bout my chinese results cause i truly think we are CHINESE ans we SHOULD speak chinese.
i just think it looks ugly on my O cert.
ok whatever. i should get some sleep,
before my brother watches soccer and screams until i cant sleep.
LOL. bye peeeps! :D

( on a brighter note, there's SS focus tmr! i can see my beloved MELROSEEEE! )

♥PatrickRockStar

8:12 AM

● Saturday, July 10

Down Down Down.
hello everybody.
havent been blogging for quite a while.
cause of studies. LOL.
i cant believe i'm forsaking things because of studying.
but well thats the fact.
and the biggest reality is that i'm gonna have PRELIMS in lesson than 14 weeks.
and O's come next. I cant afford to screw things up.
i know i already dissaapointed my parents when i couldnt go for double science.
worst still, i didnt get A for my combine science last year.
idk. i just want to do my best so when i take my results next year there wont be any regrets.
feeling so stressed up and i swear this sucks.
been attending evening academy.
i think its good. at least i really get some work done.
LOL. i know i'm not working hard enough.
idk. i'll think of some way out.
the biggest regret in life is not the things you shlldnt have but did,
its the things you should have done but did not.
i dont want to regret next year.

On positive note, things are looking up for me.
revision has its own benifits.
makes me feel more confident.
LOL. what the crap am i talking.
whatever. last saturday, watched ECLIPSE with DEAR DEAR ERIN.
i love her ttm.
ECLIPSE was nice, JACOB was hot, blah.
BELLA continues to bitch around, falling for two guys,
she doesnt knows what she wants.
whatever. i suddenly have a thing for JASPER.
i think he's nice. LOL.
whatever. the conclusion was : TWILIGHT FANS WOULD LIKE ECLIPSE.
NON-FANS thinks its cheesy, disgusting, crazy, blah.
but i'll still love TWILIGHT despite my closest ppl telling me
TWILIGHT IS ALL ABOUT WRONG CONCEPTIONS OF LOVE.
lol. i know its true. as in, love isnt all about hugging and kissing in some purple flower meadow.
whatever. i'm digressing.

oh, did i mention that saturday was also my newphew's full month?
hoho. i'm an aunt. AGAIN. =.=
i'm alr an aunt of 3! and the maternal aunt of another 3.
wth right! ok nvm.
my nephew's name is JUSTIN!
omg. i dont really like JUSTIN BIEBER.
but whatever. feels good to have an english name.
i dont have one. pfffft.
whatever. i keep asking my dad to think of one for me.
but all he suggested was NANCY, LUCY, MARY.
i confirm he's doing it on purpose k!
whatever. tmr is a sunday!
but so what. i still have to study.
shit shit shit shit shit.
I SWEAR AFTER O's I'LL JUST GO CRAZY AND HAVE FUN TILL MIDNIGHT OR WHAT!

ok, i suddenly thought of it.
i want to say, I REALLY START TO REPEL CHINESE NOW.
i've always loved mother tongue but recently, its draining me.
idk why. ytd, my chinese teacher was like asking,
wont you feel worried or what when you get low results for your assignments?
i know she's aiming me. i know it.
but i was like faking busy keeping my stuff. LOL.
pfft. my standard is not like before alr.
i can tell. i dont really put much effort in my assignments.
like the ti gang, i only got C and Bs.
idk. i really had the urge to drop HMT last yr.
idk why i didnt but i feel the drain now.
pffft. since i'm at it, might as well go for it.
get a stupid A1 so i wont need to take it when i go JC.
if i go JC. lol.
whatever, this is a lengthy post so i shall end here.

LIFE SUCKS NOW BUT IT'LL SOON BE OVER. JIAYOU!! :DD

♥PatrickRockStar

7:50 AM